Agree to disagree...

People are weird.

That weirdness really rears it's ugly head during times of political debate.  There is always an undercurrent of weirdness, but nothing like an election to bring the radicals out of the woodwork.

So, no big secret, I lean to the left. Pretty far to the left, by most people's standards.  I'm open minded about it though.  I am completely open to agree to disagree.

But...

Do not judge me if you don't know me...
Do not condemn my beliefs and I will not condemn yours...
Do not witness to me or my children...
Keep religion out of the science classroom and put it into humanities where it belongs...
I'll respect your opinions, if you respect mine...

And we'll get along just fine.

Radicalism is a very scary and nasty thing.  No matter where it comes from.  And it can come from the left as well as the right. 

Everyone just needs to smarten the hell up and be open minded.  Ha ha ha!  Like that will ever happen, as I watch society become more and more segregated in their beliefs.

In that case, I guess we just need to find like minded people and stick together. But then again, I will circle back around to saying that I am willing to hear your opinions and respect them, if you are willing to hear mine and in turn also respect them.  I will agree to disagree, until you cross the line. Until then, we'll get along just fine.  Unfortunately it seems that no one can control themselves and the line just gets bulldozed.

Very disappointing.

Dragonfly's Series of Unfortunate Events....

Yes, this is being a tad melodramatic. There was just one really bad thing that happened and it was pretty bad (but it could have been worse, I need to remember this) and it was also good because it brought a lot of issues to the forefront and they are now being taken care of and we are working towards resolutions on a certain level, anyway.

It has made me realize several things, though.

There are people that cannot be counted on, ever. I should know this already. I have been in other situations that I would have/should have expected some support, but nothing happened. And this is not for lack of my support for these people. (maybe I am thinking too highly of myself and to them, I am not what I see myself as, hmmmm, this is food for thought) I have to admit I have pretty much stopped trying, so I guess why should I expect that I would actually hear something. (I am going to hate on social media and digital tech a bit right now, because sometimes you just gotta pick up the phone, but that takes effort, so that brings me back around to where I began. I admit I am not as good as I used to be about calling people. Facebook and texting makes things too easy, and also takes away the personal touch and makes interactions sterile.)

I cannot/should not handle things all by myself. I should have learned this lesson a long time ago. I seem to have an issue with this. It is really stupid and has led to many negative outcomes. It is not being independent or self sufficient. It is just being stupid. I have got to reach out and get help when I need it. (Which also makes me realize that I have no support system what-so-ever. Okay, this isn't completely true. A couple of my co-workers are very good, I should not count them out. If it was not for them these last two weeks would have been much worse for me. I need to nurture these into true friendships, because I truly need a support system besides my husband. I wish I lived closer to my family.)

I should never judge because "there but for the grace of God go I". I have judged and this is karma. This is payback for thinking judgmental, hateful, mean thoughts. Shame, shame, shame on me!!! I am better than that.

Everything happens for a reason. There is a lesson in here, somewhere. Several, actually.

Perfection is the Enemy of Good...

This particular statement came up in a meeting at work the other day. Specifically regarding process design and work flow. I think it is an excellent observation.

There is no sense in becoming paralyzed by minutia when it is really the bigger picture that needs the focus.

There is no sense in berating yourself for things not being what you have designed in your mind as perfect, when functional is appropriate and good enough.

"Good enough", is in fact good enough.

Retraction....

I feel the need to post a retraction to my extreme pity party last week.

I did in fact find some chocolate - dark chocolate at that. And I ate it. And it was good.

I went back for another practice. Busted my ass, fell, got hit, hit back, got scrapped up, actually was in a scrimmage and above all else reconciled this fact in my mind.

I AM KEEPING UP WITH AND AM SOMETIMES BETTER THAN GIRLS THAT ARE FOR THE MOST PART 10 TO 20 YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME. I CAN HOLD MY OWN....... yup, I can hold my own....

I still wanna punch that one person in the face that pissed me off last week, but I'll do one better. I'll make a whole shit load of work for them. (because I can) That's even better. I've got their number now, baby!! I'll show you passive/aggressive, bitch!

Unfortunately the house won't clean itself. Oh well. Can't win them all. I did break down and buy a Shark Steam mop. I like it a lot. Now, if I could buy a Shark that does the laundry and puts it away, that would be even better.

I am working out at lest 3 times a week, now. Fuck the scale if it can't take a joke. I may not be getting thinner, yet, but I'm jiggling less and that's something.

So, all in all, a better week. Looking forward to an even better one next week. I just need to get over myself.

Not a good day...

I read a blog post recently that said "comparison is the thief of joy". I need to focus on that today as I sit and sulk about my life.

I recently have started an athletic endeavor - I suck, I'm too old and I hurt a freaking lot after every practice. The mind is willing, but the body is weak and old and fat and frumpy and disgruntled!!! It is a cool sport and I am a totally not cool person in that way, soooooo..... Actually what is disappointing, but not really surprising is that I was really hoping I might meet some potential new friends. Not really, they are mostly just weird, not friendly or over the top and annoying. (I'm prolly the problem in this case, I'm sure I'm not being very approachable myself. I tend to do that in new, uncomfortable situations)

I yelled at my kids this morning. I am a shrew! I hear all about these Moms that get to stay home and get to spend time with their kids and do fun motherly type stuff and I round 'em up, head 'em out, yell at them. There is no "this moment" at my house. I wish.

On a diet, starving to death, busting my ass at the gym, not getting anywhere. Very discouraging.

The house is always wrecked. Doesn't matter if it was just picked up and cleaned up an hour before, it's in a perpetual state of wrecked.

I got told I am not a real nurse. Yup, true. Not a real nurse any more. What's the point in what I do??????? Don't know..... Paycheck???? At least I'm not working the night shift. Then I'd be really, really, really bitchy, not just really bitchy.

I need to stop comparing myself to other people. I need to just worry about myself. Make improvements there. Quit feeling sorry for myself. It's just been a hard week, for no particular reason.

I'm prolly just hungry and have PMS.

I'm going to go search for some chocolate and coffee, maybe that will make me feel better.

Gag-a-palooza!!!

I will say this one thing and then I am finished, there will be no more about this.... (see princess post below for reference as needed)

When a certain associate says "yay!! its my birthday month, {insert name here}apalooza is about to begin, it makes me want to gag. This particular individual is not 6 or 16 years old, for the record.

That is all....

Haters take a seat!!

Do you ever wonder if anyone is really like what they say they are like?

I suppose that social media really causes this phenomenon to run rampant. In the virtual world you can be anything you want to be. You can tailor your posts to craft an alternative reality. Blogging too, for that matter.

I always wonder if people really do all the things they preach about. Do they really put their money where their mouth is.

What really set this off for me was some stupid little chippy taking a pot shot at me on a Facebook page about being a labeler and how I shouldn't judge and so on. Pretty funny, because where I sit it seemed like she was the one doing the labeling and judging and telling me what an awful, stupid and narrow minded person I am.

This all had to do with Vegan vs Vegetarian. I know, I know, I stepped right in it even making a comment about such a sensitive area. Well, I just asked if veganism is really a truly healthy alternative or more of a social statement. (Ya, I admit , I was kinda poking these folks with a stick, my bad!) I have not been eating meat (except for the very rare occasions - like sushi once in a blue moon) for 6 months now. I probably will not ever be vegan because I would miss the variety of foods that I would lose. I promise the next time I see a Jersey cow I'll kiss it on the lips and apologize for drinking her milk, but I won't be giving up milk products anytime soon.

I have know idea where I was going with this. Anyway....

The bottom line is DON'T BE A HATER!! We are all trying our best to do our best. One of my good friends goes to the same UU as I do and has commented on feeling judged by some of the folks there. Good Grief!! If we are on a vegetarian facebook page or at a UU Church, WE ARE OPEN MINDED!! Ugh!! Lets celebrate what we have in common and be understanding about our differences and respectful of each others opinions.

Unless you are a Right Wing Fundamentalist..... I draw the line there, sorry.

Don't blog angry...

Another pearl of wisdom to be added to the list of many don'ts.

I believe yesterday was a combination of projecting and perhaps (don't groan) PMS?? Frustration manifests itself in curious ways. Apparently I write nasty things about total strangers I know nothing about. Not that they didn't deserve it.

I'm still frustrated, defensive, feel under appreciated, unheard, micromanaged.....

I will soldier on. There is a light at the end of the tunnel. (Right?)

On that note...

Don't wash towels with darks
Don't drink and dial
Don't forget a frozen turkey in the trunk of your car
Don't buy a leather couch, even though it looks cool
Don't wear a dress and heels to a hockey game
Don't eat Indian food and Sushi the same day and then go to the pub
Don't sleep in your contacts
and
Don't blog angry