Thursday, February 23, 2012

Giving up meat for Lent.... a year later

Lent is earlier this year, than last year. I believe my post last year was March 21, so it has not technically been a full year.

So, here I am a year later and I am still not eating meat. I had a brief time in December where I did have a little, but I really was finding that I was having a hard time even making myself eat it and that my default was to not.

I don't miss it. In fact it kind of yucks me out a little now, depending on what it is. I do still occasionally eat fish, sushi is one thing I am not giving up and also fish and chips. Sorry. Also, if I am presented with the opportunity to have french fries with brown gravy, I am not guaranteeing that I will not have to have them.

It is interesting at my house, now. Hubby is not eating meat at home and neither is the big boy. I will make chicken nuggets for the little guy, because he is picky and I don t want him to starve. Yes, I know, if he is hungry enough he'll eat and I do make him try new things, but I can't take away his chicken nuggets. Big boy did make an attempt to give up meat completely for his own reasons and found that it is difficult and that there are often not a lot of choices without meat in the school cafeteria and so on. I'm curious to see where this is going with him.

So, a year later, I am happy with the decision and not feeling deprived. I am also getting to be a little more vocal about not eating meat, as well. After a year, I feel I've earned the right to discuss it now and not feel like a silly teenager indulging in a silly fad.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Dragonfly's Series of Unfortunate Events....

Yes, this is being a tad melodramatic. There was just one really bad thing that happened and it was pretty bad (but it could have been worse, I need to remember this) and it was also good because it brought a lot of issues to the forefront and they are now being taken care of and we are working towards resolutions on a certain level, anyway.

It has made me realize several things, though.

There are people that cannot be counted on, ever. I should know this already. I have been in other situations that I would have/should have expected some support, but nothing happened. And this is not for lack of my support for these people. (maybe I am thinking too highly of myself and to them, I am not what I see myself as, hmmmm, this is food for thought) I have to admit I have pretty much stopped trying, so I guess why should I expect that I would actually hear something. (I am going to hate on social media and digital tech a bit right now, because sometimes you just gotta pick up the phone, but that takes effort, so that brings me back around to where I began. I admit I am not as good as I used to be about calling people. Facebook and texting makes things too easy, and also takes away the personal touch and makes interactions sterile.)

I cannot/should not handle things all by myself. I should have learned this lesson a long time ago. I seem to have an issue with this. It is really stupid and has led to many negative outcomes. It is not being independent or self sufficient. It is just being stupid. I have got to reach out and get help when I need it. (Which also makes me realize that I have no support system what-so-ever. Okay, this isn't completely true. A couple of my co-workers are very good, I should not count them out. If it was not for them these last two weeks would have been much worse for me. I need to nurture these into true friendships, because I truly need a support system besides my husband. I wish I lived closer to my family.)

I should never judge because "there but for the grace of God go I". I have judged and this is karma. This is payback for thinking judgmental, hateful, mean thoughts. Shame, shame, shame on me!!! I am better than that.

Everything happens for a reason. There is a lesson in here, somewhere. Several, actually.

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Happy Valentines Day

"In vain I have struggled. It will not do. My feelings will not be repressed. You must allow me to tell you how ardently I admire and love you." Mr. Darcy

This is my favorite line from Pride and Prejudice. So falls away the seemingly aloof exterior of Mr. Darcy to reveal the marshmallow beneath.

So Dragonfly?? Is there a lesson to be learned here??

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

Perfection is the Enemy of Good...

This particular statement came up in a meeting at work the other day. Specifically regarding process design and work flow. I think it is an excellent observation.

There is no sense in becoming paralyzed by minutia when it is really the bigger picture that needs the focus.

There is no sense in berating yourself for things not being what you have designed in your mind as perfect, when functional is appropriate and good enough.

"Good enough", is in fact good enough.

Friday, February 3, 2012


I feel the need to post a retraction to my extreme pity party last week.

I did in fact find some chocolate - dark chocolate at that. And I ate it. And it was good.

I went back for another practice. Busted my ass, fell, got hit, hit back, got scrapped up, actually was in a scrimmage and above all else reconciled this fact in my mind.


I still wanna punch that one person in the face that pissed me off last week, but I'll do one better. I'll make a whole shit load of work for them. (because I can) That's even better. I've got their number now, baby!! I'll show you passive/aggressive, bitch!

Unfortunately the house won't clean itself. Oh well. Can't win them all. I did break down and buy a Shark Steam mop. I like it a lot. Now, if I could buy a Shark that does the laundry and puts it away, that would be even better.

I am working out at lest 3 times a week, now. Fuck the scale if it can't take a joke. I may not be getting thinner, yet, but I'm jiggling less and that's something.

So, all in all, a better week. Looking forward to an even better one next week. I just need to get over myself.